I guess I'm grieving multiple things, especially this past year. My father passed away when I was twelve. My home life never recovered. I won't go in detail but it was an isolated adulthood. At school I very involved in clubs, I was doing very good academically. Recently I lost a pet, an ex-boyfriend of 2 years to suicide and I'm still grieving with the state of my deteriorating spine. I had daily pain. This school year I did quite poorly and I'm ashamed to admit it to anyone close to me. I wonder if with how fast my spine has been deteriorating if I should even attempt another semester of school. There are more private issues I don't feel comfortable sharing but even the ones I managed have been taking a toll on me. I'd like to talk to someone with similar happenings in their life. I'd like to know how they handle it so well. Maybe it is too much now to live a normal life without ever grieving again. But I'd like to believe it isn't. I don't feel like myself anymore. I've always been strong. I dealt with shitty situations thrown at me.
I don't understand. I've been a good person. I'm the kind of kid (young adult I guess) you want your kids to become. I wonder how much more God has in store for me.
Sarah, this post was some time ago and there was much activity but I can relate to just about everything you said. That's about all I'll say to see if I get a response and then I'll share more. My email is Livedog2@Hotmail.com